ponderings of the mind at two in the morning

i decided that since today was the first day of my exams i would wake up early have that first chai at the tapri and some breakfast.

next i would head back have a nice shower and get to college early to see everyone.

well, i got back late from the tapri ended up chatting with a good friend which resulted in me not having a bath and sprinting to college, but i was still early.

the exam: a waste of time. both of them were and at the end of it, it was good riddance.
with everything done i decided i would head back and sleep. i didn't have anything to do anyway. then i see friends and we decide to get something to eat. just as well, sleep is not that necessary i tell myself. i had the whole weekend to sleep so it didn't matter.

after having the worlds best dhai vada i end up watching a disastrous movie but with a friend so we bitch out loud and it ends up being a pretty ok time

after all this.

i go for a movie. the wrong one, but quite entertaining anyway.

it's now two in the morning, quite pleasant and the streets are empty. i'm walking with a friend and we both walk like we're going somewhere important. we talk to eachother softly so that the silence of the night isn't broken.

i look up at the sky and don't see a moon. i feel betrayed in some way. where did the moon go?

i recall all the times i've done this, get back from a movie so late. and all the times i've had the moon as a stable guide and companion.

i look up again in hope that maybe it was just hiding. but no, it just isn't there. i feel bad because i always think of someone when i see the moon.

i want to call someone and tell them about how the moon isn't there. my friend ignores my remark and we continue walking and talking.

it seems i must take a stand. face my fear and not let it get to me... or past me.
so that i don't end up losing a friend.

i'll wait a few days let the idea sink in.

for now i love this weather. i love the companion beside me. i love the conversation.

i need sleep.

good night. sweet dreams.